Musings and Reflections – Spring 2018 Week 3

One phrase impressions:

Hisone to Maso-tan – What can I say? It’s fun.
SAO Alternative: Gun Gale Online – Keiichi Sigsawa is a clever man.
Piano no Mori
– Indifference.
Golden Kamuy
– Guess who’s back? Yes, it’s the star of the show!

My Reasons Why Award

Hello, everyone!

     On this quite ordinary day let’s talk about ordinary things and an award that isn’t like others. Usually blog awards end up in one way or another simply meaning “I like your blog”. It’s not the case with this one as it concerns more fundamental things and deeper issues than viewer count.

     It’s not that apparent in AniBlogging community but take a look for example at reddit, more precisely a subreddit where people share screenshots of manga and anime that remind them of their own life. Especially a month (or something like that) ago you couldn’t browse it simply because about 2 out of 5 pictures were extremely negative: “I’m trash”, “Why is life so unfair?”, “I like suicide” and similar ones. Well, I’m not against dark humor and picking fun at stuff characters say as it might be as good entertainment as any but when it becomes an ocean of despair, I’m getting more and more worried.

How about no?

     Sure, life isn’t always fair and you can’t win every time. I get that there’s some satisfaction in posting a picture where a character says “I’m hopeless” and seeing it upvoted because many people feel that way. Feeling miserable is a completely natural thing, the problem begins when such people see that there’re many despairing individuals like them so that becomes the norm. “I’m feeling down? No problem, everybody’s feeling down, too”. Well, it is a problem, and while getting a few laughs is the best it can do, it can do far worse.

     This problem of course isn’t necessarily peculiar to anime community alone. It’s an issue of the whole humanity. A bold statement, sure, but, always residing in negativity may bring the worst outcome.

     Sure, I’m no psychiatrist who could get into a person’s head, understand his issues completely and tailor a perfect solution. I’m just a guy living in a country whose suicide rate is in top 10 in the whole world. Yeah. Of course that doesn’t mean that my words are especially valid. It’s just a sad fact that I can’t ignore, even living a happy life.

     And that’s where the Award comes in. A fellow blogger kimchisama created it after some very unfortunate and saddening experiences. It’s probably the best to give the scene to her:

      This award is going to be about making your reasons. Your reasons why to keep living – to keep going. Maybe at this point you don’t have an issue with depression and that is okay. Sometimes it is still good to think of all the good things in your life. Maybe you think that you have nothing and you can’t make a list of reasons. I’m going to tell you now that THERE IS NO SMALL REASON. Dig deep. Deeper if you must. There is always a reason for you to keep going and living and breathing. Maybe one of your reasons to live is that so in the morning you can eat bacon. That you will stay alive just to eat bacon again. To me this isn’t a small or silly reason. It is true to yourself and if you are every going through a rough time maybe the smallest reason will reach your heart.

As with all the awards, there’re some rules:

1. Mention the person who nominated you (thanks for that!)

2. List 13 reasons why you keep going/living.

3. Nominate 10 or more people to give their reasons why.

4. Use the picture that kimchisama created.

Not a very amazing list, but here are my reasons to keep going:

  1. Friends and family. Well, it would be hypocritical not to start with this one since I’m surrounded by terrific people.
  2. Family history. I’d love to dig deeper and learn about my ancestors. That’s a very long-term objective since I’d have to sit through lots of boring papers written in terrible handwriting in languages I don’t really know but it’s fascinating to know your roots. Knowing the names of only one pair of my great-great-grandparents and their professions (a roadman and a housekeeper by the way) isn’t satisfying enough.
  3. Summer house. A place where I’ve spent all my summers since being born (except one, as cliche as it sounds). It might be only a habit but I probably wouldn’t be able to survive without completely turning my brain off for two months and doing manual labor there. It sometimes may be a pain in the ass but at the same time gratifying to have a quite place in the middle of nowhere with a little lake nearby and several apple trees (among others) whose fruits are of such heavenly taste that you can’t find in supermarkets no matter how hard you search. Yeah, you can say that my spiritual animal is Holo.
  4. Lilacs and lupines. I’m not the biggest fan of flowering plants in general though I do appreciate greenery. Still, there’s something about that violet (or especially white) color (and the scent in the case of lilacs) that fills all the space and reminds you that summer is just around the corner.
  5. Anime and stuff. Yeah, what else did you expect? My watchlist isn’t getting any shorter and the same can be said about the list of manga and LNs. There seems to be an uncountable amount of stuff worth experiencing – great stories, great characters and stupendous animation.
  6. AniBlogging. Yes, what did you expect? watching anime is one thing but being able to share opinions and enter meaningful discussions is another. I’m very happy that this community is so mature and respecting, and that’s only a couple of reasons why I love being a part of it.
  7. Reading. At this point I’m not the most avid of readers but in the back of my mind there always stirs a notion that the ocean of great literature is endless and  I should take a good swim in it. And I’m still eagerly waiting for Winds of Winter to be published. Stay healthy, GRRM.
  8. My piano. I had some experience learning to play it and even if my technical skills aren’t nowhere near as good as I’d like them to be, it’s fun to be able to play something you enjoy listening to. Even if I may butcher the original intentions of a composer, it’s always a joy to sit down, turn off your brain and let the fingers do their job.
  9. Traveling. Another long-term goal. Probably very long-term because at this point I’d rather stay where I am. The problem is that I easily get car-sick or bus-sick after traveling for about 1,5 hour and that’s neither a period of time to get anywhere nor an encouragement to to. I hope that psychology might be one of the reasons why and I may be able to overcome that eventually. I know that there’re so many great places to visit everywhere. But sadly not now.
  10. Studying. To be frank, among my classmates at Uni continuous lack of motivation has become sort of a running joke and I’m a bit confused that I’m more or less satisfied about everything. I’m probably lucky enough to have found a field and place where I’m comfortable enough and eager to keep learning.
  11. General interest. Well, I just think that these times are interesting to live in. Science progresses by second, many innovations are introduced into daily lives. Sure, people with power sometimes behave like kids that are unable to share a playing ground but I have faith in humanity, its brain power and compassion rather than in its selfishness.
  12. Inertia. It might sound weird, but one of my reasons to keep living is because that’s what I do already. I’m sort of a person who doesn’t like to change things too much and at least to me it’s easier to concentrate on what I must do now and simply do it without overthinking it too much. I don’t consider not living an option. When that inevitably comes, I’ll probably stay dead for more than enough time, and while alive, I still have stuff to do. As one of my colleagues at Uni sometimes says, don’t rack your lungs (yeah, not brain) and do what you can.
  13. I’m feeling lucky. No, it’s not related to Google. It’s simply the fact that when I think of it, there’re countless people in the world that are far less fortunate than I am. Just look at this list – countless things I have that are completely meaningless knowing that hundreds and thousands of people this very second are dying for ridiculously easily avoidable reasons like thirst, hunger or war. I have done nothing to deserve everything I have, it’s just a pure coincidence that I’m able to type this and not lie  dying because of, say, malaria or AIDS. What can I do about it? I think at least be conscious about the situation and make my life as fulfilling as I can.



Fueled by Smiling


king dylbag






Yahari Bento

     I hope each and every one of you (tagged or not, sorry about that then) will think of many more reasons to keep going and appreciating life as it is. And as I said, I’m no psychiatrist but if you ever need a spare ear to talk to, I can offer my both.

100 followers + Anniversary + Anime 3×3

     Hey, everyone!

     I’m pretty excited since a few days ago I passed a very round milestone. One hundred (and now a little bit more) followers is a thing, and a big one.


Musings and Reflections – Spring 2018 Week 2

One phrase impressions:

Hisone to Maso-tan – Bones living up to the expectations
SAO Alternative: Gun Gale Online – Kawahara messed up real bad with character creation.
Piano no Mori
– Not that impressive so far.
Golden Kamuy
– Cooking time!

Scattered Thoughts – Fate/Cooking vs Fate/Umu

   Winter season was blessed (or cursed depending of your perspective) with two Fate shows, but hardly anyone talked about them. The first one, Emiya-san Chi no Kyou no Gohan isn’t precisely a normal show because it’s being released only once a month by ufotable. Moreover, it’s not even a normal Fate, but more about that later. In the other corner we have Fate/Extra Last Encore, a Shaft title, boasting of having the brain behind the whole franchise – Kinoko Nasu – on board. After Apocrypha people may have become too full of Fate or otherwise I don’t know how to explain lack of interest in these shows. On the other hand, Fate has become a nine-headed dragon and each of its new heads seemingly gets more and more unlike what people expect Fate to be. Tackling such a beast always demands more than starting yet another stand-alone show. The current situation of Fate isn’t necessarily a bad thing but sometimes it even looks like a certain show manages to keep afloat only because it’s attached to the franchise and not because it’s good by itself. Different as they are, stories of a single franchise should be comparable to a certain extent, shouldn’t they? So let’s try to look at what these two shows can offer.


Musings and Reflections – Spring 2018 Week 1

One phrase impressions:

SAO Alternative: Gun Gale Online – Recipe: 10 parts of talking, 1 part of action.
Piano no Mori
– Actually pretty good, though rushed as hell.
Golden Kamuy
– Hokkaido’s fauna is pretty memorable.

My name in TBW Tag

     It’s been quite some time but I haven’t forgotten it and I’m very thankful for kimchisama for tagging me. I think various tags and awards are not only fun but also very healthy, as at least for me it provokes to get out of the comfort zone and think and write about things that I would probably never write about otherwise. Of course, a few lines of different content isn’t much but it’s better than always writing the same thing over and over again.


Musings and Reflections – end of Winter 2018

     Winter happened to be a pretty good season for me – two great shows dominated over others, and that doesn’t happen very often – since the beginning of my episodic blogging in Spring 2016 it happened only once when the second season of Rakugo and Kuzu no Honkai aired back to back. Apart for my two favorites, other Winter shows ended up being either expected (Ito Junji: Collection) or unexpected disappointments but you can’t win every pre-seasonal guessing game, can you? Actually, this season could’ve been even better for me since only a few days ago I started YoriMoi and so far I’m thoroughly enjoying it so that makes Winter a truly great season. And Yuru Camp is still awaiting. And people say that anime is getting worse and worse… Anyway, lets wrap this up.


Musings and Reflections – Winter 2018 Week 14

One phrase impressions:

Fate/Extra Last EncoreFinally the end. Oh wait…
Violet Evergarden
Could the existence of the whole show have been avoided if Violet opened a dictionary and looked up what “love” means?

Musings and Reflections – Spring 2018 Week 0

     For some time I’ve been trying to keep an eye on the shows that will air very soon – continuously checking if there are any interesting news, reading others’ opinions and peeking at their watchlists… And still I don’t have a clear grasp about the next season. There are some notorious shows that I won’t watch simply because they are continuing ones and I didn’t care much about them anyway (yep, that’s Boku no Hero for example). Inevitably some shows are looking to be more promising than others but it just so happens that I don’t possess any strong feelings to any of them. Before the Winter season began, I had my lineup pretty much set so I guess the fact that I have no clear preferences now somewhat balances that out. I guess I’ll have to pick up my usual lineup of four or five shows along the way. It’s not that my backlog is depleted so either way it’ll probably be a season just like any other.